kena tagged.

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
point taken, everything happens for a reason.

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
midas touch, metaphorically.


3. Whose butt would you like to kick?
my alter ego.


4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
hedge funds. least my fortune will see 3 generations.


5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
been there, done that.


6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
being loved indefinitely.


7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
you can't put a time limit on certain things.


8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
be happy. everyone is entitled to 'choice'


9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
an internship would be great.
trip to brisbane.
the loves.


10. What takes you down the fastest?
pessimism.


11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
attached. affluent. content.


12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
the mrs.


13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
chatty. (my judgement based on last night)


14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
single and rich, single but attached.


15. What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
think.


16. Would you give all in a relationship?
relationships come in different sizes.


17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
the better option.


18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
somethings can't be erased.


19.Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
relationship ups.

xx

She thinks that I'm full of it, arguments, always pissed, man I'm tired
Every kiss, that I missed, girl you know I'm trying -Usher

her heart is obliterated.

pursuit of happiness.

one of the best speeches.

"No way, no how, no Mccain. Barack Obama is my candidate and he must be our president."

Hillary Clinton 2012.

fake indifference and i.

source: macallen brothers.

the vision.

usher -moving mountains

3 -months till the holidays
2 -weeks till assignments are due.
72 -days till the nz love arrives.
28 -days till brisbane/gold coast
12378458 -hrs of unawaken sleep

i've come to a conclusion.
1. sleep overdose, makes you ineffectual.

2. my group members must be uber pissed at me.
reasons being,
i turn off my phone before i sleep. *i sleep 12 hrs days.
i change mobile numbers as and when i please.
i reply them a day later.
and i switch it off again for another great nights sleep.

3. i shall make it a point to get my ass to nz next year.
i'd like to go zorbing.

4. great friends are hard to find,
someone who is there when you're down.
someone who keeps trying even when things have changed.
someone who calls you to find out how things are.
someone who calls you just for a quick chat.
someone who still tries even when they don't see any benefit in trying.

life is great.

i spy,

limitless: the sky's the limit. therefore, we are bound by no limits.

you said, "it's in the stars"
i said, "the stars are blind."

grizzly bear,

you win.
i put up a good struggle.

& the mrs is leaving.

a month to go.
but im already exhausted.

penelope.

the world is brighter than sunshine.
i'm in a pensive delirium.
in depth detailed explanations.
comfort due to certain closure.
relieve stems from a far away soul.
i forgot the rest of entirety,
too caught up in my own simplistic necessities.
-it's always better late than never

Mach is the shorthand for Machiavelli who wrote the book Il Principe in the 1940s.
The concise version, wiki style : A prince who can retain control of his realm

Fawce, aka Machiavellianism is a person's tendency to deceive and manipulate others for personal gain. In the 1960s, a test based on Il Principe was created to measure a person's level of Machiavellianism, Mach-IV.

High Machs tend to take a more detached, calculating approach in their interaction with other people. Low Machs tend to take a more personal, empathic approach in their interaction with other people. They tend to be more trusting of others and more honest.
How mach are you? mach
source: www.wikipedia.org/wiki/Machiavellian

"I was the one you always dreamed of,
You were the one I tried to draw,
How dare you say it's nothing to me?
Baby, you're the only light I ever saw.
I'll make the most of sadness,
You'll be a bitch because you can.
You try to hit me just to hurt me
So you leave me feeling dirty
Because you can't understand."
- John Mayer, my dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room.

"You only miss the one you love. See, I miss dad."
-the mrs trying to make conversation.

how white do lies go?

anxiety attacks.

I need to let off some steam due to external pressures.
Lately I've been having these bad headaches.
For most part, I've been popping 2 advils a night.
That can't be healthy. They don't help either.
The mrs says I'm stress. I do believe so.

The past couple of days have been hot. Today, it's cold.
Either my body temperature has gone haywire or..
Well, I think I'm falling sick.
Wonder which will kill me first.
The stress, being sick or lack of sleep.

Consistent chest pains,
Maybe I'm sleeping in an awkward position.
I straighten myself just before I sleep, lie there for a couple of hours
The next morning I find myself sleeping in a ball under my sheets.
Life is real great.

I'm sure there is a medical prescription for anxiety.
Because i am so sick of alcho, for now.
ps. Sorry babe HAHA
pps. But I do wanna eat spicy food soon!

xoxo

together we cry.

"Are you sick or depressed?"

"I think a bit of both."

Maybe being depress made me sick.
Anyway, I've been chucking. Me thinks it's food poisoning.
Cold chills run down my spine, febber.
Lucky me.
xx

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag. I'm not gonna move,
Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am,
Some try to hand me money they don't understand,
I'm not... broke I'm just a broken hearted man,
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,
How can I move on when I've been in love with you...
Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

heart pangs.

blahdays, back to square one.

yesterday's recollection, zero.
faces, a big blur.
names, a bigger question mark.
many happy blahdays.
jean. heidi.

nectar. seven. 2am, david.
151/ab.
drank. drunk. puke. hangover.
11.34 am.
extra hot nandos perix2
im current lying in bed, recooperating.
xx

dragged ms. z out of the club. apparently.
got a cab. put the two loves in.
got comfy, head on her lap, legs up.
chatty, very.
took off my jacket.
bed hogged.
woke up. window, puked.
sleep.
as told by ms. z

great friends.
xx

she nearly convinced me to get another piercing today. eek!
the powers of a bestie.

babe, you can't help who you fall for. but you can avoid.
feel better now.

yesterday i dressed in the dark.
xx

edit*
I dont know what wrong with me.
I feel so uber sick. Fuck.
yesterday's XXX didnt help either.
feel so blah every day nowadays.
hope the blah feeling will go away soon.
sigh.

It's all about the money.

Poor imitation of that dollar sign.

I put in an application for a marketing job today.
I just need one opportunity.
The mrs said be efficient. Dont be a dumb fuck & accept any stupid job.
Well, the market research went well.
I'll get paid $80 for being a "fai chai" soon.
Saving moolah because my bank account tells me so.
Cash poor Cash poor.

Gravity is working against me & gravity wants to bring me down.
Gravity makes me feel sad. fuck. How?
Im currently waiting, waiting for what?
Waiting for that moment to slap me.
But I won't let it.
Gravity stay the hell away from me.
I need a drink for fucks sake.

How can one post have so many mixed emotions?
Oh god, I don't know what to say.
I'm just wasting time, waiting.

Tomorrow I will be more positive.
Tomorrow I will do my marketing.
Tomorrow I will read that shit.
Tomorrow, Tomorrow, Tomorrow.
And the rest of next week.

Anyway, do you know sometimes when you take a picture & you think you look good.
Then months later, after looking at that same picture you're like "God damn, I'm fucking ugly."
Mm..happens all the time. Trust me...

I'm such a perfectionist, I completely forgot how to blog normally.
So there, I am currently writing all my thoughts down, no editing.
And then, I feel all better.

So how was dinner ya'll? Great?
I feel a little weird today.
Do you think I can recover?

You know what? Ok, let me tell you the truth.
I can't believe you asked me for money.
This makes us even.

And Im off.

xx

Sorry post!

Fuck. I totally forgot to do your online assignment for you.
By the time I checked it, it was already 9.20pm.
Im really out of it today due to lack of sleep.
For that, that makes me a bitch & Im sorry for that.
If you choose not to believe me or if you think I did this on purpose then so be it.
But I am very sorry about that.
If I could turn back time, I would.
Seriously.

A continent away,

Random road trip today reminded me of the last trip to Ipoh.
God, i miss those times so much.
It's sad you won't be there at the end of the year.
Who will i hang out with everyday, spend my lazy days talking on the phone, call late nights, spend christmas, new year, my bday & cny with?

Let's do Putrajaya one last time.
xx

My take at photography.

Bite the dust. Cant you see my plastered smile?

Moomoo's got me going.

Postcard from heaven, this is from me to you.

Good luck with everything.

Don't hesitate.

Ms. z told me to blog, she likes to read my shit.
Well, where do I begin after such an extended hiatus?

Firstly, what have i done :-
1. Watched a couple of movies.
Jason Statham is the shits (:
He is one cutey, really..

2. Went for a gig, met an old friend, made a new friend.
Macam your blog la babe. hahaha

3. Drank, drank, drank.
Had few great dinners here and there.
Red wine galore, gelati

Ms. z and I have been pretty close recently.
I found out that we have alot in common.
We think alike. Must be the jan baby syndrom.

Worse, I think dah terinfluenced to say "mother", I meant "MADAAAa"
Oh fek myself.

Random hits.

Curry puffs.

Doesn't the little furball on the left look like Furby?

Dry cleaners down here.

Mona lisa smile?

I have writer's block.
I keep deleting my post after posting my 2cents up for less than an hour.
If you're lucky (macam ms. z), you'd be able to catch glimpses of it.

Anyway, as I was telling her, I have no right to dish out advice currently.
That resulted in another deleted post.
Peh.
xx

What am I?

Terribly difficult to decipher,

To some, you are a speaker.

To others, you become the listener.

Some will want your company,

While you may want another's company.

With some, you are seen as better.

To others, you are worst.

Some will like you.

Some won't.

What am I?

When you're screwing up & nobody is saying anything to you anymore, they have given up.
Be mindful of what you wish for.
xx