CNY celebration

street party, 27Jan -seraphi?


cloud watching, 27Jan


New tee & painted black nails yummy xx


the siblings on the way home

pretty jewels.

poppy, 23Jan -hot hot + super tired

C.h.

vege

How was your CNY?

love story.

Hey, this is my story.

It's true.

Ok. Listen.

Oh Baby there’s something’s that I have to tell you bout
Can’t hold it in my heart
All this pain is breakin’ me down
Thought I found my one true love
Couldn’t show you how I feel
I was stupid baby my pride wouldn’t let me be real

I’m asking for one more chance
Didn’t know where you stand or
What your feelings demanded from me

I pleaded your love wouldn’t pass
You left me out in the rain when you just walked away

This song is a story of a true tragedy
I gave up my heart
I tried to give you all of me
We’ve come to the ending somehow
I don’t know what to do

But I don’t wanna forget now
I love you baby, I still love you

This is the sound of honesty
I gave up my heart
I tried to be all I could be

My heart gonna wait forever
I’m still holding on to
All of our moments together
I love you baby, I still love you

We were so much in love
Tell me how could you forget
Wish you were here with me but
Memories are all I have left

It seems the promises that you made to me were nothing
And you’re smiling girl but I see your hurt within

I’m asking for one more chance
Baby give me your hand
So we can both understand this love
I pleaded your love wouldn’t pass
all the pieces of my soul want to live in your heart

This is the story of a true love tragedy
I gave up my heart
I tried to give you all of me
We’ve come to the ending somehow
I don’t know what to do
But I don’t wanna forget now
I love you baby, I still love you

This is the sound of honesty
I gave up my heart

I tried to be all I could be
My heart gonna wait forever
I’m still holding on to
All of our moments together
I love you baby, I still love you

Gotta close the door

Just like you did before

See my heart is broken

Baby I can’t do it no more

Even though it hurts

I’ll make a brand new start

And lay the rest all the moments

That played with my heart

But just before I do
I gotta let you know that
No man will love you more
So baby never forget
Listen, I’m without you
All I know is right now
I love, I’ll always love you

This is the story of a true love tragedy
I gave up my heart
I tried to give you all of me

We’ve come to the ending somehow
I don’t know what to do
But I don’t wanna forget now
I love you baby, I still love you

This is the sound of honesty
I gave up my heart

I tried to be all I could be
My heart gonna wait forever
I’m still holding on to
All of our moments together
I love you, I will always love you, yeah

resolution '09

well, i know this is a little late (20 days to be exact) but im sloppy like that.

wishlist '09 should start off like this,
-finishing up my internship at Citibank by mid Feb
-get my passport done during CNY next week
-get my ass to that open house on feb 1st
-not fail that measly x1 unit i took this sem
-starting up at the gym again should be a 4x weekly thing
-stress less because i have no more work
-able to shop for certain delectables at lala sungai wang
-hoping to go hk so i can do a little bit of shopping before i head back
-start up my chinese so i can prepare myself for a 5 weeks winter
-not fail any subjects for sem1/2
-and lastly try to hit my 6k target this year

things to buy '09 (ill get back to you)
-studs
-converse black, low
-converses black, leather yummy
-super coloured nikes i saw at the curve
-cc skye might have to wait

did i mention i need money?
oh god, im so poor at the moment.
i need to go back to my day job in aussieland
the pittance i make here cant even cover my expenditure.
not that i go out much anyway.. being friendless and all.

shopping is an unhealthy hobby and holidaying is an expensive sport.
heh and to cure all that, i'd like to take pictures of everything i see from now on
if i do remember, that is.
sods for being a forgetful cat.

well, in another 4 more weeks i'll be done at Citibank.
Then i need to pull another fast job cz im broke like that.

i swear im one of those people who can vegetate alone.
god, all i have is my blog. poor blog.

well, 3 cheers to:
that camera i cant afford,
the time i don't have,
the phone bills i cant pay for,
and those holidays i couldn't make.

to wishes that come true and hard work that pays off.
i will never have been so happy broke if all goes well this year.

hope everyone has a great year!

with love,
steph.

poppies in jan.

i am one step closer to understanding what i want in life and in myself.

btw, i am x1 addicted to addictive ppl

classic line "promise? HAHA"
fuck you all!

xoxo

Poor boy didn eat anything the whole day.

dancefloor packing.

Allie my cherub,

Backdated, dinner at mont kiara -to our 22nd.

gayness dancing on the podium.

the yongs,

night all!

oh coco,

Lose grip on gravity falls sky blinding crumbling walls


I don’t mean to close the door But for the record my heart is sore You blew through me like bullet holes Left staind on my sheets and stains On my soul You left me broke down beggin for change Had to catch a ride with a man who’s deranged He had your hands and my father’s face Another western vampire different time same place I had dreams that brings me sadness Pain much deep than a river Sorrow flow through me in tiny waves of shivers Corny movies make me reminisce Beat me down easy on this generic love shit First kiss frog and princess


I’ma shake you off though Get up on that horse and Ride into the sunset Look back with no remorse.


Had late night/early morning chitchat,
i get it now.
must must must remember to compromise

xoxo

moving on.

if you let certain things affect you, you show weakness.
remain that way forever and you are one step further from moving forward.
hold on to the things around you and you let the chances in front of you slip by without realizing.

here i am, i find myself still holding on.
holding on to something abstract.
somethings i can't change, somethings can't move me either.
this makes me feel inadequate, uncomfortable, angry even.
discomfort in my own skin.
i don't feel like me.
i swallow myself in this large hole.
perhaps i made it myself, unintentionally.
that was a long time ago but sometimes i can't help but head back to the past.
reminise about how i once was.
if you stay there for too long, it consumes you.
i hate it there because its just too dark.
you can't find your way out.

im moving on because people change.
im scared.
at the same time im sad.
but i cant forever stay stagnant, at the same place where i started.
i can't imagine having the same life i once led.
i just can't but at the same time, it feel as if i lost something,
like a severed arm or a big toe.
and here i am now, searching for a piece to fill the hole.
i don't know.
sometimes i feel like i want my old arm back.
sometimes i feel like i can grow another one.
it only takes time.

can you imagine taking all those drowsy meds?

human fraility

"A person can, just by living, damage another human being beyond repair.'' And when that happens, the person who causes the damage is forever wounded as well. ''Maybe I've lost the chance to ever be a decent human being,'' Hajime says as he passes his 20th birthday. ''The mistakes I'd committed -- maybe they were part of my very makeup, an inescapable part of my being.''

bday 09,

this was backdated, xmas party
ps. thats me holding a piece of my butter crab*


got bored waiting


my finished product


karaoke love.


cute couple.


red bull fans


layan



red wine,


and poker.


had no candles.




zouk layan












7ate9


cute ashtray


me makeup less having a cold.




plus, got my bday presents
x1 braun buffel bag
x1 nintendo ds onyx
x1 jade bangle
x1 free dinner/wine

i know weird right?

and babes ms z, pls send me the picture of both of us so i can do a lil postie winkwink*

right, have to sleep. work tomorrow. bleh
night all
xoxo