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friends, we do stupid things.

friends, we do stupid things. god i miss you.

besides that, im having a pretty hectic schedule. plus my love for guitar hero and rock band. zomg.

ill be working this fri, sat, sun.
mll314 exam 19 nov
ielts test 5 dec
sia concert 10 dec
mll336 ass due 21 dec
msia 22 dec -10 jan
eco perak event 28 dec - 7 jan?
mll391 ass due 29 jan
mll314 ass due 26 feb

besides that, i got a job in msia while im back.
i cant decide if i should work though but the remuneration is epic. lol
i cant help myself..
anyway off to class toodles xx

brb

hola. im away from 8-13.
cant wait to see all of you mwah mwah.
smoke filled lungs + alcohol tolerance tip + endless conversations.
toodles. xx

crayon.

today, i feel so depressed.
i feel like nobody is saying the right things i want to hear.
i feel like nothing is going the way i want it to be.
i feel like i cant seem to do anything right.
i am so busy, its unbelievable.
and im only going to get busier.
im already struggling to keep afloat.
i thought that if i keep doing something, being active it would be okay but its not.
i am so stressed out but i dont even know why im so stressed out.
ok maybe i know why im stressed.
and i just want the right someone to tell everything that has been going on in my life.
i feel so fucking sad.
i feel so dissapointed, fuck.
wtf is going on??

ps. i saw your car at uni today and i lost my mind.
and i realize you were the best drug in my world.

night.
xx

how come i have so many people who care but yet i feel so alone??
i think im going crazy.

reckless indifference.

god, this is so different cz i thought i was moving forward.
but then, i got an email about 3 days ago.
initially i was surprised cz i didnt think you would ever speak to me ever again.
after everything.
you were so freakin pissed off, it scared me.
and now, i feel so elated.
honestly i cant seem to understand this feeling.

all i know is i havent moved anything around/deleted anything.
everything is still immaculate, in the same spot.
all ive done was look for excuses: im busy, ill do it later/ill get around to it.
i couldnt believe my eyes, i had to double check that i had received that email.
how lame.

and why so many people ask me why.
goddamit, ill tell you why its so perfect.
because it was irresponsible love.
a love so pure, without boundaries.
and i fell in love with that reckless indifference.
im looking for that kind of love but somehow im afraid of it.
now all i can say is everything changes but everything stays the same.

my safe bubble may have just been thrown into recourse.