live high

i want to feel like this, every day, every second of my life.

if this is what we’ve got, then what we’ve got is gold

this feeling is all too familiar.
i told myself, i cant believe i've been here for 7 years.
how time flies.
i now tell myself -5 years more and you'll be home, i promise.
you need to preservere for the sake of your future, your children's future and their children's future.
and so i continue on my journey of preservation -enduring and adapting.
i must admit sometimes it gets tough, really tough especially during the nights when im left on my own to think but i've chosen to walk on this path and one day, i hope, finally when im done, ill be able to return home.

ill show mommy.

raison d'etre-everybody's gotta have one.

1. finish up on your mll334 exam notes
2. finish your internship appt
3. sleep

le sigh x 1000000

she's telling me to get high!

(:

enery giver//energy taker

“Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen.” Ephesians 4:29

When I was younger I used to have a friend whose name was James. James was a simple but easy going guy. He was intelligent, he loved reading and he was handsome. He used to be a member of a larger group of friends that had stayed together from high school. Even during our university years, where our social circles exploded, we still continued to go out together and consider our group as an active one. But slowly, slowly the other guys started to get colder with him.

It took me some time to pinpoint the source of awkwardness. James was the guy that would never talk too much. For example he would never initiate the conversation and he would never say what he had in mind. But still he would call you almost everyday and he would ask you 'What's up ? What news, man ??? '.


As years passed, everyone in the group seemed to evolve to a new, more colorful character. Some passed the point of being interesting and entered the domain of being 'strange' but still they could not pass unnoticed when you had them in front of you. All except one. James. When he was out for a beer with us, he would never offer something to the group. He kept repeating something that someone else had already said, he never shared any stories and he never held our attention for longer than a minute. He was just sitting there, waiting to be entertained. Then one day I realised that if I didn't make an effort for the conversation, our interaction was doomed to fade out: He was too bored. Many years have passed since then and I am still a good friend with almost everyone in that group. All except one. James. He is no longer a member of the group and now I know WHY.

People like you because of the way you make them feel.

So let's picture this. Imagine that you are a part of group of seven friends that are sitting in a bar and they are having a cool beer. In that group one or two persons will be doing the talking. He and the persons that are actively participating in the conversation are the ones that offer positive energy. The others, the ones that are just listening - they are the absorbers. In a good group of friends, persons will be alternating roles all the time. You cannot talk all the time.

The ways to offer energy in an interaction can be counted with the fingers of a hand that has been playing with firecrackers:

1 - Story telling. 'Thou cannot believe what happened to me lazt week when I went to get my tongue pierzed...'

2 - Humour. Any use of humour ( canned or improvised ) is a great way to make people in the group feel happy. '... So the hippie grandson gets back to the house and asks his grandmother. "Hey granny have you seen my LSD stickers ???". Then his granny answers: "Forget the stickers my grand son. Can you tell me what on earth will we do with the dragons that we have in the kitchen ??".

3 - Positive thinking. Just be positive and enthusiastic (to a certain extent..).
4 - Participate in the conversation even if you don't feel that the subject is interesting. Learn how to have a small talk and how to chat about things that don't seem very important. "... and personally I love lager beer because the taste reminds me the first day I licked a...".

5 - Have a positive non verbal language AKA boooooooody language. This is a bit of a long chat but remember that your body language influences the others subliminally. So if you have a grumpy body language they will start to feel strange and it won't be long since they will anchor that feeling with the boring guy sitting next to them.

6 - Listen actively. Make the other feel that you are listening to what they are saying. Then give your opinion.

7 - Engage the mind of your friends with tricks, magic, logic games or interesting news that you've picked up from somewhere. If on the other hand....

1 - You sit back without making any of the above, if you don't give a damn about the interaction or if you wait like a prince for 'something interesting to happen' ...

2 - If you make negative and toxic jokes about someone in the group ALL the time ...

3 - If you offer non positive feelings to the group with any other wicked way that we cannot think about right now... Then ... you are stealing energy from that group. And the ones that feel the toll the most are the energy givers. They feel that they have to talk all the time to keep the group going, they feel like they have to perform and this drains them completely.

Every person has only a certain amount of positive energy to give every day. Let's say that for some is 10 euros and for others is 23 dollars. How should she or he invest them? Should she throw them all in a black hole and take nothing back? Or should he offer them at a group of givers that will give him back another 20 euros ??

This is the reason why givers become so popular and have multiple solutions for what will they do, not only Saturday night, but every other night of the week. While, on the other hand, energy takers end up with a few boring friends. For those among you that are givers and you feel that someone from your environment is draining you out, remember that you have the right to leave him and walk away. You cannot be there always to feed him with energy all the time.

He must wake up and understand that IT TAKES TWO TO TANGO. Are you shy? Are you introverted? It's OK to be shy but please ... DON'T be lazy. It is one of the most insulting things you can do to someone. Make an effort for the interaction.

by happybrainstorm.com

dont forget the ones who were there on your way up.
dont forget the ones you love or the ones who love you.
dont forget you're amazing, just the way you are.

oblivious.

we heart it.

i cant decide whether im more hurt, or unhappy.
so ive chosen to ignore.

love & other drugs.

mind games

from bloodymotherfuckingasshole

i am determined to be happy. i cant wait till october.

love like any living creature needs to be fed. crazy innit?
happiness is right where you left it.
xx

loved it when i heard it.

And I just can't keep living this way
Sooo starting today, I'm breaking out of this caaaaage
I'm standing up, I'ma face my demons
I'm manning up, I'ma hold my ground
I've had enough, now I'm so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now!

It was my decision to get clean, I did it for me
Admittedly, I probably did it subliminally
for you, so I could come back a brand new me you helped see me through
And don't even realize what you did, believe me you
I been through the ringer, but they could do little to the middle finger
I think I got a tear in my eye, I feel like the king of
my world, haters can make like bees with no stingers
and drop dead, no more beef lingers
No more drama from now on, I promise ...

Cause I'm raising the bar
I'll shoot for the moon but I'm too busy gazin at stars
I feel amazing and I'm

X eminem X


why does it feel so good?

hiatus post

Olivia from Stylelikeu.com from Stylelikeu on Vimeo.

Siena Fleming from Stylelikeu.com from Stylelikeu on Vimeo.

love these vids - i can replay them over and over again. xx

this is the beginning,

emo again but this time, im better at hiding it. im cheating myself into thinking ive changed, but as much as things have changed, all things remain the same. i love it, i cant help it, i want it, i fear it, i avoid it, i look for it -i just got better at hiding it.

almost perfect

i dont know why girls love strong characters, myself included.
doesnt matter if that same boy was a dick, they still fall in love nevertheless.
i realized my priorities have changed since 8 years ago
the shallow has become incessantly more shallow?
perhaps, and maybe the focus has diverted a little as well.
i only realized after today.

i really love a quirky & interesting guy,
with a great sense of humour and can make me laugh
who can dish out the right jokes/teases and take my mean jokes too
(good comebacks & mini fights are necessary)
a little bit sensitive & emotional so i know whats going on in their mind
(jealous but not over the top)
who is a little bit of a baddy outside but a wholesome sweetheart on the inside
who backs me up even though i am so goddamn wrong and lying through my teeth
who makes me feel like im over the moon delirious everytime after we speak
with a strong character and knows how to put their foot down when necessary
knows the right things to do at the right time without me asking for it
and makes me feel like im being treated exactly like how any girl should be treated, with respect

i know this list seems so perfect but i found it before
and i know for sure ill find it again.
and this is why some of us stay friends,
some go the extra mile to be good friends
but only one goes the full mile.
its the non existent feelings in between that tells a story
and its a journey in itself.

i also know that sometimes, well im constantly talking about love all the time.
although not anymore -not sure why
but i can tell you the reason why i used to.
life isnt beautiful without love to be honest.
but as much as i want to find this love, im not willing to settle.
honestly, it doesnt take much to impress me.
what i really appreciate is the art/skill to flirt, tease and have good comebacks
a suave man and touche, hook, line, sinker.
why?
because it shows that you're really interesting and that you've actually put effort in finding out about the opposite sex.
i guess thats why its called the game of love.
so its true and the story goes, nice guys finish last.
oh, and i quote 'nobody likes a pussy.'

i havent found this guy yet but im waiting to fall head over heels.

gerrreat.

im trying not to be the person i grew up to be because honesty apparently doesnt get you very far. instead, i am trying to be the person i want to become. i never realize that it would be this difficult though, to be expressive. yet it is something which is required in today's society. the fact that many people tell me i should be more expressive but this 'expressiveness' in connotation marks has limitations and should be done in an acceptable and appropriate manner. how does one then identify what is this appropriate mannerism/form of expression?

i also realize that humans are by far the most complex creatures, fraught with emotions. i have a lot to learn. although, i am starting to think maybe i am better off as a housewife. only cz im lazy xx

some boys are meant to be eye candy, other boys are bffs, and only the rare one tends to stick like -goooey sticky taffy

toodles xx

shortpost.

source. ps

10 things i hate/love about you.
1. i love champagne & magners
2. i love running in the mornings
3. i love being busy/keeping entertained
4. i love work
5. i love
6. i hate gossip/gossiping
7. i hate working too much
8. i hate sugar in my latte
9. i hate hailstorms/flashfloods
10. i hate

off to grab coffee then heading to work. bye!

conversation builder.

Imba is used mostly in online games or games that have patches or different versions. Imba means that something is imbalanced and should be "nerfed" or made worse. When something is imba it means that is is too good and it makes the game unfair.

im getting better at lingo every single day.

come to me
the moon is closer than your eyes
i can barely see through the cracks
light shines out of my scars
siren screams in vain
i have already died a million times inside

I surrender
shoot me down
no bullet could
stop me now
my love does not depend
on anyone or anything
itll never die

im ticking like a timebomb
soon to blow away
i am not you
you are not me
it still plays
i could say i love you
if only for a day
my mind sunk this ship
i am drown in it

donnoh what im feeling right now but...

im currently lusting for Elise Whipstitch Bag in black.
http://www.witchery.com.au/www/136/1001127/displayproduct/elise-whipstitch-bag--5112793_bags--1961665_.html

nites
xx

39 ways to show your love.

...Once a week

1. Fight (a little). Getting your grrs out keeps small annoyances from snowballing. Britain's longest-married couple proves it: Together 81 years, Frank and Anita Milford say their secret is "a little argument every day."

2. Walk hand in hand. Even just to your car after an evening at Waffle House.

3. Compliment each other. This one's a daily to-do, if you can. There's no nice thing that's too small to mention: his excellent taste in music, the way he always opens the door for you — it's all worth a verbal love tap. And he will swoon.

4. Make love (obviously). But also ...

5. Have generous sex. You need at least one sexual connection a week that's all about pleasing the other person. (Dear busy people: Feel free to multitask and make this the sex from before. Same goes for this next one ...)

6. Sleep together before work. Put down the straightening iron and heat things up this way: "Weekday morning sex is the secret sauce in a relationship," says Tristan Coopersmith, 33, coauthor of Menu Dating.

7. Get into bed and ... sleep. "Sometimes the best thing a couple can do to ignite their passion for each other is sleep," says Hillsborough, New Jersey, sleep expert Carol Ash. If you two aren't in the sleepover stage yet, co-napping has been known to work wonders too.

8. Let something go. Argue over the stuff that matters, but once a week let him (and yourself) off the hook for things that don't: Yes, he chews his popcorn loud. No, it won't kill you.

9. Laugh really hard. Laughter is a relationship's Krazy Glue: It bonds you. Uninspired? Fast-forward to the chest-waxing scene in The 40-Year-Old Virgin, or send him something snortworthy from funnyordie.com.

... Once a Month

10. Be do-gooders. Volunteering together (even just helping a friend move) bonds you because you're ID-ing "common values," says Elizabeth Lombardo, a psychologist in Wexford, Pennsylvania.

11. Do something scary. Been together a while? A pounding heart mimics the rush of brand-new love, says Patti Wood, an expert on nonverbal communication in Atlanta. Fly in a balloon, or order the sweetbreads for two!

12. Talk about money. Whether it's "Should we open a joint account?" or just, "Hey, let's split the bill tonight."

13. Brag publicly about him: his fearless pursuit of the mouse in your kitchen, the armful of hydrangeas he surprised you with, the raise he landed even in this economy. Surely once a month you can think of something that'll make him blush in front of your friends. He'll probably get you back too.

14. Declare something "this stays in Vegas." A silly nickname, or a crazy bedroom mishap. Share something intimate, then pull the couple bubble around you tightly.

15. Be the man. Not literally, but if your guy always initiates dates, romance, whatever, take the lead for once. Christina, 26, of Jersey City, New Jersey, likes to ask her husband out on formal dates: "I've even brought him a red rose."

16. Disappear together. Hike somewhere AT&T can't find you (and thus your mother, your boss and his needy friend Bob can't find you either). No woods? Any time spent totally alone together — a long drive, even — will do the trick.

17. Disappear alone. We're not advocating game-playing, exactly. But in this world of 24/7 availability, it can be good for your relationship to each have some solo time. Afterward, you'll feel recharged, like the free-spirited single girl he fell for once upon a time.

18. Go to a party! And mingle separately. It screams confidence and makes the after-party rehash even sweeter.

19. Have sex some way you've never had it before. A worthy challenge, whether you've been together 10 days or 10 years. Try a new position or play out a fantasy. Doesn't matter whether it's really new to you, as long as it's new to you as a couple.

... Once a Year

20. Build a doghouse. Or restore a Firebird. Or, OK, sew matching Star Trek costumes. Any team project "is fantastic bonding," says Wendi Forrest, owner of Time for Nine, a golf dating service.

21. Now get the dog. Or at least a plant. Anything that'll grow with your love.

22. Say the tough thing. The dark family secret. The crazy career dream. If you can't confess to your significant other, then who? (Hey, you think Barack never said to Michelle way back when, "This may sound nuts, but I think I want to be president someday"?)

23. Cancel Valentine's Day and invent your own lovey-dovey holiday. Lobsterfest 2010, anyone?

24. Fall apart. You can't schedule this. But it's important that you each know, via experience, that you can completely, utterly lose your grip — weep over a bad haircut, threaten to leave your job after a nutso day, have a wrenching fight with your mom — and not lose each other.

25. Don't. Get. Up. At least once a year, break open some bubbly, disable the Wi-Fi, and don't get out of bed for the weekend.

26. Talk birth control. Not so sexy, but potentially life-changing. Would a different method work better? Is it his turn (or yours) to take primary responsibility? And where are you on the whole kid issue, anyway?

27. Re-kiss your first kiss. All timid and hopeful ... and wonderful.

28. Write each other. New Orleans newlywed Rebecca, 32, was inspired by her husband's uncle, who writes his wife every Christmas: "One letter may not seem like much, but after 30 years it's a wonderful record of their lives."

29. Think back on all the reasons you fell for him, whether you've dated for a year or a decade. Some will be big (his extra-dry sense of humor); some will be small (his love of argyle). Make sure you tell him, and remind yourself. Hello, butterflies! There you are again.

... And Once In a Lifetime

30. Get lost together in a foreign country.

31. Damn the cost and go do the dream.

32. Get intimate someplace you might be discovered.

33. Suffer through food poisoning together.

34. Go to each other's "fun" high school reunions.

35. Pay off the mortgage!

36. Come back from the brink of a breakup even stronger.

37. Together, convince a skeptic pal to believe in love.

38. Have a poor phase. Maybe a rich phase, too.

39. Count the stars. Know your love is one in a billion.

HAPPY VALENTINE's DAY!

source: glamour.com, some lj.

Mom, I dont wear pants.

I have a huge weakness for tights, leggings and short dresses.
Weather could be a huge factor, layering could be another. hm, I dont know.

Anyway, do you see the progression?
For those that dont know me, I dont vary all that much.
Most of my clothes are either black, white or grey, sometimes a little bit of red, with either polka dots, hearts or stripes.
Why? - Mainly because I for one suck at colour coordination & its simpler to just add prints.

Im so happy. I hope the small size doesnt sellout whine*


American apparel heart tights


American apparel shiny peach leggings


Supre polka dot dress in black


Supre polka dot dress in navy blue

Lucky for me American apparel & Supre are just up the road (:
Now I cant wait till exams are over so I can go buy them! FML how exciting!

Also, as a huge foodie lover, I must try this:
A macaron or French macaroon is a confectionery whose name is derived from an Italian word “maccarone” meaning paste.[1] It is meringue-based: made from a mixture of egg whites, almond flour, and both granulated and confectionery sugar.

The confectionery is characterized by its smooth, domed top, ruffled circumference, and flat base. Connoisseurs prize a delicate, egg shell-like crust that yields to a moist and airy interior. The French macaroon differs from other macaroons in that it is filled with cream or butter like a sandwich cookie, and can be found in a wider variety of flavors that range from the traditional (raspberry, chocolate) to the exotic (foie gras, truffle). Making macarons requires a great deal of discipline and is a process that is highly dependent on exactitude, technique, and proper equipment. For this reason it is a notoriously difficult recipe to master and a frustrating endeavor for the amateur baker.[2] Source: Wikime.


Laduree, based in France.



Anyway, so I checked up on where these babies are sold here. Only to find that macarons (not to be confused with macaroons) are not very popular here. sigh. The only places which apparently make these well are Lindt cafe and Cafe Vue. So after exams imma get myself some macarons.

So beautiful I WANT ALL THE COLOURS! SEE!!
http://www.lindt.com/au/swf/eng/chocolat-cafe/cafe-collection/delice-collection/
I think pistaschio looks the best.

Lastly, I just want to take some time to wish everyone a HAPPY CNY! DRIVE SAFE!

im miles from where you are.

contingency plan.

How to measure the successes in your life? Is it through your achievements, the amount of money you make/have, the lifestyle you lead, or the best clothes you own?

I cant believe that in a blink of an eye, another new year has begun. As the new year rolls around, I began to list what I wanted to achieve for 2010. The results were pretty much the same as the lasts. Does this mean I haven't achieved anything worth mentioning in the lasts few years?

Truthfully, I thought about this question for a long time last night. I couldn't exactly remember the past few years. In particular, I can't even exactly say I truely remember what I did during that time. And to be honest, I think the best part about those few years was the fact that I couldn't remember any of it. Obviously, my memory or rather the memories are still there but I would not have much recollection of those times if I hadn't taken any photos.

Mil was speaking to me today & she told me how XX can fk with a person's mind. I questioned myself and her and wondered if it were true. Am I more anxious now or changed into a different person completely? I'm not sure. I used to say that things in the past, had I not done any of those, I wouldn't be as strong of a person as I am today. Today, I'm not as sure anymore.

As I begin this new year, I think its time I scroll through that list I made several years ago and begin to tick the boxes as I prod along. I don't want to be left behind and seeing as I am clueless about what I want my career to be in the future, I should really sit down and think about ways on how NOT to waste time. I am after all a master procrastinator.

I really hope I haven't lost myself after all that I've gone through. If not, all that I am doing now will be a waste of time. All I know is in the midst of all my wants, what I really need is to be home with family and as time draws nearer, I am curious to see what my decision will be.

ampifyme xx

pkfaced.

Yesterday, I was just having a look at the chanel store & i saw the white bag which i want. So anyway, today i decided that maybe I could/should layby it. I mean Ive been working heaps and i guess i can put a down payment and pay it off slowly in the next couple of months...smart thinking right? not. Guess what I received in the mail today? BILLS. effin car rego, insurance, parking permit. all up 2k. thank you very much. there goes my down payment for x1 chanel bag. Anyway, its been some hectic weeks! I didn't realize I was working 3 day weeks/rushing assignments & procrastinating whilst trying to study. Need to up my ante. btw, andy is such a cutey. xx

ps. j, if you read the last msg widgie, u'd find that the bitch aka me gets a free rose. can i request for baby pink? (:

source: ps, lj, panotes, mycamera.

bffs

burrberry ss10 i love you. give me your skirts&dresses.

the mad race.

did you guys read about the earthquake in haiti?
or that churches around malaysia are being targeted for hate crime?
what about the recent attempted bombings which caused an uproar amongst different countries?
canada and nz have both increased their airport security in attempts to combat terrorism.
what is the world turning into and when will it stop?
it seems as if we are losing the battle against both mother nature and the fanatics.

the world used to be a better place, 10 years ago.
i remember i used to be able to go to parks without any quelms.
now, i dash out to my car whilst looking left and right and once immediately inside, i lock myself in.
i curious to see whats going to happen in the next 10 years?

bored, so i re-tell my life story.

hm. not sure what to write today but i did feel like havin a go. right now, im currently tuned in to the 6 music cds i bought from the pm last weekend. its nice. im really happy people actually remembered my birthday. thanks so much guys. i know i am an insensitive b*tch lol but okay ill try to make it up to everyone. anyway, i was glad that i had a h2h that night too. i found out incredulous things that i never knew before, like how it didnt matter that everyone messages you happy birthday but if that one important person that matters the most doesnt do something special at 11:59pm, that hurts the most. it doesnt even matter if they try to make up for it on the actual day cz it just doesnt cut it.

ok time for an inside joke.
im really happy. ive decided i wanna get married at 29 (pls dont ask me why such an auspicious number) and i also wanna buy a house before that, in particular, a double storey terrace worth ard 700k and pay it off within 7 years. "some people" may not believe in my capabilities (ok i guess its a little hard to do) after i heard the cold hard facts but still let me be in my lala land can? and yes i also do not want my "temple" to be tainted. so i guess that cancels out ppl staying there and paying rent over the next 7 years. picky much? yea i reckon. anyway, i think dreams can be realized if i really work hard towards it. ive got determination ok..just sometimes a lil depressed/very lazy thats all but overall im so uber grateful that i can be an "ïndependant woman" so to speak.

on top of that, i want to get married at the convention centre close by to bkt kiara. its uber pretty and have pink+white roses and pink champagne + hennessy gathered together in a small gathering surrounded by my family and closest of friend (that means bffs). ok la perhaps im a girly girl so i like the colour pink but never really admitted it (and plus the fact that i found out that my fav flower (maybe cz its the flower for the dead) is the most expensive flower) what a shocker right. and why doesnt anyone believe me/take me seriously when i tell them the truth but when i lie then everyone is like wahwahwah. ok i swear maybe i am a born liar, one who has no idea that lying can save your life. seriously, you should watch the invention of lying. its a goood movie.

also, i dont understand why ppl keep laughing when i say fml?? whats so funny bout it. i think its quite a catchy phrase (ever since the sibling introduced me to the wonders of fml last spring), i fell in love with it and ive been an avid user of that expression. fml right not?

this is my fav song atm. i heard it a long time ago so its vv old but still so uber yummy. for those who dont know chinese history and because im such a history buff, i shall give you a low down on who/what is "liang shan bo and zu ying tai". basically, to put in it simple terms, they are like the romeo and juliet of the east. zu ying tai is kinda like mulan, they fall in love lalala you get the picture. have a listen. i love it, so you'd better love it.



ok another thing is im starting to love this singer. he is freaking awesome and he is a sabahan. omg. listen to this song.


other songs of his on my play list is the top 3 songs on his supermarket album.

and lastly i watched this movie which was so uber good, love happens. what a tear jerker.

escapism.

just remember that you're talking to me though
i mean after all the things that we've been through
i mean after all the things that we got into
how could you be so dr evil?
you're bringin out a side of me that i don't know

in the night i hear em talk coldest story ever told
somewhere far along this road he lost his soul
to a woman so heartless.

What a year 2009 has been, both rough and exciting for me. Ive seen so many things, done too many fuck ups, realized, fell down and picked up, only to achieve, well, im starting to question this sense of achievement (or lack thereof). what did/have i achieved? that i manage to survive yet another year? oh wow. sense of biggie achievements. lets not talk merits because merits are constant and achievable, however, thats dependant on whether you are up for the challenge. 2009, i lost love ones, got heartbroken, started from scratch, made new friends, reconnected, got a new job, tried to put a little bit of structure into my discorded world in order to get a grip of reality, did i failed? i hope not. i dont know why when it get closer to my birthday, all i feel is so miserable and i need a little bit of "me time" to pick myself up. i just wonder whether its a bad thing not to tell you my thoughts? instead, i just feel like i need to vent but i dont know how or to who and thats evident cz none of my thought are coming out. i was so excited bout the next year, my thoughts were that it would be bigger, it would be better. but coming into the new year, i find myself very lost and dissapointed with the circumstances ive put in front of me and the circumstances i have as of now. im an overachiever and i think i may have overreached my capacity. now im tired. life is good but there is something wrong with the pictures. it seems to be telling me with unspoken words that the sparkles my eyes created in photographs were telling lies and the lines on my face blurred. what a rough year it has been, yes. and coming into this new year, boy it has been rough too.

so this year, my birthday wish this year is pls, someone pump me full with liquid dreams.

your greatest dreamer,
steph
xx

public apology.

i ran my mouth off a bit too much what did i say??
and we'll all float on okay (:

dearest j,

you are a girl's best friend. forever okay??
anyway, cant believe i hung up on you yesterday. worst, i cant believe you got angry at me.
so if you are still angry (which i think you are cz you are a super siu hei master which only know how to tell me all the bad shit about me), im sorry.
anw, i cant understand why when i get scared, i start to avoid the whole situation altogether. quite bad right? i know. but then i started to think about it and (insert own sentences)
so, still on for karaoke with my cousins?
on top of that, i cant believe we are going on a roadtrip! exciting.
happyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappy. 99999999999999999999. opportunity year.
come let me rub some of my opportunity on you.

love, steph.

Happy New Year 2010.
came home drunk.

I feel so restless today.
and i just dont know what to do with you.

what to do on my bday?! eek!

nitey xoxo