The journey

How we get so bitter towards the ones we love still baffles me.
To think we care most about those we love but give them the worse treatment.
I still wonder in amazement as to why that occurs.
Which is worse? To not give a damn or to care n be left miserable?
Why can't we pick n choose the feelings we want and detach ourselves from the feelings we don't want?

Anyway, I've been really busy lately. -been enjoying spending time w my mum.
Everyone knows I'm a mummy girl, which means all no ph calls, no txt, no goin out when she's around. 24/7 w her.
Besides that I'm trying to finish my assignment -it's one of those where the more you write the less sense it makes kind.
Going alumbra tmr, family dinner sat then BBQ/drinks/mahjong sat/sun n work mon.

Ive been really tired lately which begs the question am I diabetic??

And so the journey begins. Gnight.

sometimes.

Love this vid!


With eyes wide shut we lay stagnant awake
Safe for now in this wonderous state
Lost at a crossroad that’s missing a sign
How do we know if they made it alive

There’s something lurking in the distance ahead
Fragments of light shine away from the dead
They fantasise fury, no time left to stop.
Darkness approaching now we’re at a loss

Sometimes, when all that’s lost remains
Drink from the fountain of youth and never age again
Sometimes we jump across to every cloud
Fly away, get lost and never be found

There’s something lurking from the shadows within
Stealing the colour and life from our skin
They fantasise fury at no extra cost,
Darkness approaches now we’re at a loss

been on my ipood since eons.

Q: Why am i bitter?

A:
1. You defame me on fb either intentional/unintentional, express/implied its there and its on a constant basis. Just because i dont say anything and i dont do anything doesnt make me blind. I choose to be ignorant to your comments.

2. The worse thing is after you defame me on fb, you speak to me as if you havent ever said any of those comments (you are probably wondering what comments/i am overly sensitive), we havent been in an argument, as if we are the best of buddies (After defaming me on fb -probably because you didnt even know about this, probably because you were angry at that time (Why am i still making excuses for you?)), as if we are still the same and then you have the expectation that i will speak to you just the way that it was before.

3. You send me incoherent/with "expectations" text messages, even after no. 1. and number 2, and you still expect me to speak nicely to you, just the way that it was before.

4. When i speak to you, you are dissatisfied with the way i speak to you. And then you give me attitude (because you didnt know about number 1, 2 and 3). And i cop your shit for it.

5. The fact that i didnt say anything about what's been bothering me

6. You corrected me. To err is human and so fine, i stand corrected because i am human.

7. And finally, after "1" month you want to "talk about it". That is very nice to know that it took you "1" month to cool down before we could talk about it.

The fact is, I know you are human but heyo, I AM HUMAN TOO.

I know i shouldnt be posting this here but fact is nobody reads my blog anyway!

just a feeling.

dont know why this past few days ive been feeling really down.
hoping this feeling will pass cz man it really sucks to feel like this.
even in moments sleep neglected, i still feel like shit.
i really wonder what is up.

anyway i really love this song.


off to work.

juxtaposition.

You push me, I don't have the strength to
Resist or control you
So take me down, take me down

You hurt me but do I deserve this?
You make me so nervous
Calm me down, calm me down

Wake you up in the middle of the night to say
I will never walk away again
I'm never gonna leave this bed
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Watch the sunrise
Say your goodbyes
Off we go
Some conversation
No contemplation
Hit the road

Car overheats
Jump out of my seat
On the side of the highway baby
Our road is long
Your hold is strong
Please don't ever let go Oh No

I know I don't know you
But I want you so bad
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Today i feel very down. I dont know why.
haih haih haihzzz...
FOCUS STEPH! omg.

love it!

time flies?

i am so tired! gonna slp soon.
10 things i did last week till this week:
friday drinks
sat - tues work
sun walk
and all the spare time in between for assignments.
that sums everything up.

just wanted to post 2 songs. hehe
1 song ill never get bored off. eamon eamon eamon eamon.


and new song


finally after 1 month of being back and eating salmon sandwich everyday, im sick of it lol. and i just realize ive only been back for a month..how things change and all things stay the same.