control

i've taken back control of my life after x3 arduous weeks of self loathing. the approach: i have deleted all my (treasured) websites & hey i might regret it (cz honestly i did it in the spur of the moment) but that's okay cz i know i have been wasting too much of my time on nothing & these websites, bad bad bad websites, all they make me feel is horrible about myself every winter over & over again. why why why why why do i let myself get so affected all the time is beneath me and so now, it is the time i start taking back control of my life. gym, healthy eating/living, positive thinking, stop living in my room and start my freaking assignment tonight (and hopefully try and get it done) so i can actually go out on the weekend.

Anyway i made this vlog out of boredom a few days ago. correction, why cant i upload it via blogger?? sigh. ill upload it another time.

ps. ive been watching lots of rube goldberg today. shall leave you with that instead. awesome!


assignment time xoxo

Norway massacre

Mummy said not to get enter cars with strangers. this is why.

Regardless of his reasons or his intentions - multiculturalism, immigration, anti muslim fanatic, many (children in particular) have died in the hands of this madman, a blonde hair blue eyed which could have possibly been mistaken as a policeman.

To call him a madman would only relieve him from the responsibilities he should shoulder.

This is by far the most disturbing and now, he want to be given a day in court to be heard.

What say you?

via aljazeera

kbox

this was like from weeks ago, kboxing w henessy.

ps. henessy is e-v-i-l.

woohoo.

my first vlog! i sound so bad but wtf right. haha nvm.

a posse ad esse

i just invested in vara&varina ferragamo shoes.

shall be waiting for them to arrive (:

varina

vara

take a stab, have a listen. xoxo

ps. i decided that im going to start doing some vlogs so stay tune.

in the deep end.

kbox

bistro vue

daddy took me out for steakchops

longgrain, cripsy pork belly

and betel leaf something -ahha i took a bite out of it.

daddy took a picture of mr. puglet for me

my uber organised cupboard

transformer @ imax

im missing some pixels - cant remember where they are now

i wanna makea vlog! should i/shouldnt i??

salar, among other things

my next bag buy, no words can describe except the price

all i can say is it is aesthetically pleasant to the eyes.

the only thing is i cant decided on the colour.

will also be getting these babies when my mum arrives whoopie!

ill be able to claim 15% tax back when she heads out with them.

eva clutch

gauffre pochette

source: purseforum, lv e-store, salar webbie

baobao

ori

or

eng ver?

i love them both!

apropos

this song reminds me of the time forever ago, as i toured so many foreign roads

it is so apropos, adv.

fitting; at the right time; to the purpose; opportunely

[Narrator:]
"So apropos
Saw death on a sunny snow"

[Him:]
"For every life..."

[Her:]
"forego the parable."

[Him:]
"Seek the light."

[Her:]
"...my knees are cold."

Running home
Running home
Running home
Running home

[Her:]
"Go find another lover;
To bring a- to string along!"

"With all your lies,
You're still very lovable."

"I toured a light
So many foreign roads
For Emma, forever ago."

two articles about me.

I 11%, N 12%, F 50%, J 67%

As an INFJ, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you take things in primarily via intuition. Your secondary mode is external, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit with your personal value system.

INFJs are gentle, caring, complex and highly intuitive individuals. Artistic and creative, they live in a world of hidden meanings and possibilities. Only one percent of the population has an INFJ Personality Type, making it the most rare of all the types.

INFJs place great importance on havings things orderly and systematic in their outer world. They put a lot of energy into identifying the best system for getting things done, and constantly define and re-define the priorities in their lives. On the other hand, INFJs operate within themselves on an intuitive basis which is entirely spontaneous. They know things intuitively, without being able to pinpoint why, and without detailed knowledge of the subject at hand. They are usually right, and they usually know it. Consequently, INFJs put a tremendous amount of faith into their instincts and intuitions. This is something of a conflict between the inner and outer worlds, and may result in the INFJ not being as organized as other Judging types tend to be. Or we may see some signs of disarray in an otherwise orderly tendency, such as a consistently messy desk.

INFJs have uncanny insight into people and situations. They get "feelings" about things and intuitively understand them. As an extreme example, some INFJs report experiences of a psychic nature, such as getting strong feelings about there being a problem with a loved one, and discovering later that they were in a car accident. This is the sort of thing that other types may scorn and scoff at, and the INFJ themself does not really understand their intuition at a level which can be verbalized. Consequently, most INFJs are protective of their inner selves, sharing only what they choose to share when they choose to share it. They are deep, complex individuals, who are quite private and typically difficult to understand. INFJs hold back part of themselves, and can be secretive.

But the INFJ is as genuinely warm as they are complex. INFJs hold a special place in the heart of people who they are close to, who are able to see their special gifts and depth of caring. INFJs are concerned for people's feelings, and try to be gentle to avoid hurting anyone. They are very sensitive to conflict, and cannot tolerate it very well. Situations which are charged with conflict may drive the normally peaceful INFJ into a state of agitation or charged anger. They may tend to internalize conflict into their bodies, and experience health problems when under a lot of stress.

Because the INFJ has such strong intuitive capabilities, they trust their own instincts above all else. This may result in an INFJ stubborness and tendency to ignore other people's opinions. They believe that they're right. On the other hand, INFJ is a perfectionist who doubts that they are living up to their full potential. INFJs are rarely at complete peace with themselves - there's always something else they should be doing to improve themselves and the world around them. They believe in constant growth, and don't often take time to revel in their accomplishments. They have strong value systems, and need to live their lives in accordance with what they feel is right. In deference to the Feeling aspect of their personalities, INFJs are in some ways gentle and easy going. Conversely, they have very high expectations of themselves, and frequently of their families. They don't believe in compromising their ideals.

INFJ is a natural nurturer; patient, devoted and protective. They make loving parents and usually have strong bonds with their offspring. They have high expectations of their children, and push them to be the best that they can be. This can sometimes manifest itself in the INFJ being hard-nosed and stubborn. But generally, children of an INFJ get devoted and sincere parental guidance, combined with deep caring.

In the workplace, the INFJ usually shows up in areas where they can be creative and somewhat independent. They have a natural affinity for art, and many excel in the sciences, where they make use of their intuition. INFJs can also be found in service-oriented professions. They are not good at dealing with minutia or very detailed tasks. The INFJ will either avoid such things, or else go to the other extreme and become enveloped in the details to the extent that they can no longer see the big picture. An INFJ who has gone the route of becoming meticulous about details may be highly critical of other individuals who are not.

The INFJ individual is gifted in ways that other types are not. Life is not necessarily easy for the INFJ, but they are capable of great depth of feeling and personal achievement.

Apparently there is only 1% of ME(s) out there! EEK


INFJs are distinguished by both their complexity of character and the unusual range and depth of their talents. Strongly humanitarian in outlook, INFJs tend to be idealists, and because of their J preference for closure and completion, they are generally "doers" as well as dreamers. This rare combination of vision and practicality often results in INFJs taking a disproportionate amount of responsibility in the various causes to which so many of them seem to be drawn.

INFJs are deeply concerned about their relations with individuals as well as the state of humanity at large. They are, in fact, sometimes mistaken for extroverts because they appear so outgoing and are so genuinely interested in people -- a product of the Feeling function they most readily show to the world. On the contrary, INFJs are true introverts, who can only be emotionally intimate and fulfilled with a chosen few from among their long-term friends, family, or obvious "soul mates." While instinctively courting the personal and organizational demands continually made upon them by others, at intervals INFJs will suddenly withdraw into themselves, sometimes shutting out even their intimates. This apparent paradox is a necessary escape valve for them, providing both time to rebuild their depleted resources and a filter to prevent the emotional overload to which they are so susceptible as inherent "givers." As a pattern of behavior, it is perhaps the most confusing aspect of the enigmatic INFJ character to outsiders, and hence the most often misunderstood -- particularly by those who have little experience with this rare type.

Due in part to the unique perspective produced by this alternation between detachment and involvement in the lives of the people around them, INFJs may well have the clearest insights of all the types into the motivations of others, for good and for evil. The most important contributing factor to this uncanny gift, however, are the empathic abilities often found in Fs, which seem to be especially heightened in the INFJ type (possibly by the dominance of the introverted N function).

This empathy can serve as a classic example of the two-edged nature of certain INFJ talents, as it can be strong enough to cause discomfort or pain in negative or stressful situations. More explicit inner conflicts are also not uncommon in INFJs; it is possible to speculate that the causes for some of these may lie in the specific combinations of preferences which define this complex type. For instance, there can sometimes be a "tug-of-war" between NF vision and idealism and the J practicality that urges compromise for the sake of achieving the highest priority goals. And the I and J combination, while perhaps enhancing self-awareness, may make it difficult for INFJs to articulate their deepest and most convoluted feelings.

Usually self-expression comes more easily to INFJs on paper, as they tend to have strong writing skills. Since in addition they often possess a strong personal charisma, INFJs are generally well-suited to the "inspirational" professions such as teaching (especially in higher education) and religious leadership. Psychology and counseling are other obvious choices, but overall, INFJs can be exceptionally difficult to pigeonhole by their career paths. Perhaps the best example of this occurs in the technical fields. Many INFJs perceive themselves at a disadvantage when dealing with the mystique and formality of "hard logic", and in academic terms this may cause a tendency to gravitate towards the liberal arts rather than the sciences. However, the significant minority of INFJs who do pursue studies and careers in the latter areas tend to be as successful as their T counterparts, as it is *iNtuition* -- the dominant function for the INFJ type -- which governs the ability to understand abstract theory and implement it creatively.

In their own way, INFJs are just as much "systems builders" as are INTJs; the difference lies in that most INFJ "systems" are founded on human beings and human values, rather than information and technology. Their systems may for these reasons be conceptually "blurrier" than analogous NT ones, harder to measure in strict numerical terms, and easier to take for granted -- yet it is these same underlying reasons which make the resulting contributions to society so vital and profound.

i always knew i was special but not this special.

loot ;)

just want to share my new dress in shocking pink!

birthdays

okay so my brother's birthday is coming up.
as kids, we grew up with one and only one birthday cake flavor, black forest.
i shall attempt to recreate one of his (and mine) childhood memories -the black forest roulade (with a slight french twist).
hopefully it turns out as expected. good to know ive got the recipe here so it cant turn out too wrong!
http://www.goodtoknow.co.uk/recipes/289827/Black-Forest-roulade
and if this works out, this will be one to keep in my book of recipes for my future non existent guest.

btw, i love this song! this is sex on a stick. anyway im gonna shower and read xoxo

exhaustive

terribly exhausted today, from the constant outings, to the very [well, in steph's standards -i kid you not] late nights and skinny lattes.
its like a replay of a bad dream, which i reckon equates to a nightmare
i'm meant to sleep at 12 only because i want to wake up at 6, but i reset my alarm to 7, just because i know i cant so why bother trying.
okay 5 minutes left to fit my life into this post.